marți, 25 ianuarie 2022

A night of Lust

 



We went to the church this night 


I've touched your hand in my silence 


You smiled 


Soft, radiant 


Like a full moon.


Seduction. 


Do you know that this


Is a type of memory 


Exclusively tied to the touch?


Haptic memory. 


We looked around


The miracle of the night 


The scents and


pollen of existence.


I am troubled


Immeasurably


By your eyes.


I caught 


A glimpse of her:


She looked so sad in this light 


Like a friendly hand


just out of reach.


A candle stranded on


This church.


Soon she will disappear


into the calm


morass


Stay!


My Wild Love!


Time searched the hallways


for a mind.


Hands kept time.


The climate altered like a


visible dance


When your eyes fight


To explain.


I wanted to take you 


Next to my chest.


The sound of 


Your heart beat 


Night-time women.


Wondrous sacraments of love.


I'm lost in the vanity


of the senses.


Have you ever seen "God"?


An angel runs


Through the sudden light


Through the church 


A ghost precedes us


A shadow follows us. 


Felt?


The Sun


The Moon


Heard? Music,


Voices


Touched? 


Your hand.


Tasted? 


water


And wine.


That’s how I met her,


lonely and frozen


And sullen


right from the start.


You want ecstasy


Desire,


Dreams.


The unfolding


instant of creation


Things are not exactly what they seem.


Mouth fills with


Taste of wine


A coin spins. The faces.


Two girls 


One a friend, the other, the young one, a newer stranger.


The blonde one was called Endeavour


The brown one, Freedom .


We talked and they told me the story 


Of Venus Delta's.


Lust.


She holds back the urge to masturbate. 


I want you to touch me.


The still waters of your mouth 


Under the trick of kisses.


Confusion


No connections


Girl begins to bleed


She says her period


It's Church heaven. 


We are promised.


We of the purple glove


We of the starling flight


And velvet hour


We of arabic pleasures's night 


We of sundome and nights.


Where is the wine?


In that moment 


We were infinite.


What can I do so that will


somehow reach her


on a Sunday Morning


When she's already back?



I dropped by to see you


late this night-


She said -


But you were out, 


like a light


In its calm garden.


I wanted to feel your eyes on me


When I look away 


What are you dreaming about?


You asked-


I am a guide to the Labyrinth


Monarch of the Volatile towers


on this cold stone 


above the iron mist


sunk in its own waste


breathing its own breath.


I will show you the girls of the ghetto


I will show you the burning well


I will show you strange people


haunted, beast-like, on the


verge of evolution.


Look at the


Brothels.


You smell like love.


I’m alive. 


I’m Me!


Still laughing in the wind.






vineri, 7 ianuarie 2022

When...

 When 

Desires, memories, fears, passions form labyrinths in which we lose and find and then lose ourselves again.

When we open ourselves

you yourself to me and I myself to you,

when we submerge

you into me and I into you

when we vanish

into me you and into you I

Then

am I me

and you are you.

More...

 The more they lock down

The more my heart opens

The more they say “You cannot”

The more I say “I Am and I will” 

The more fear they bring

The more I will trust

The more they say “trust us”

The more I will trust on my intuition and the divine

The darker they try to make it

The brighter my light shines 

The more they try to divide

The more I will stay connected

The more rules they impose

The more sovereign I will be 

The more they try to tame me

The wilder I get

The more they threaten 

The fiercer my roar

The more they say “bow to me”

The stronger I stand. 

I bow only to Love. 

I am Free.

To my dear R.

 

From: "Good morning, R!"


I want you to tell me about every person you’ve ever been in love with.

Tell me why you loved them,

then tell me why they loved you.

Tell me about a day in your life you didn’t think you’d live through.

Tell me what the word home means to you

and tell me in a way that I’ll know your mother’s name

just by the way you describe your bedroom

when you were eight.

See, I want to know the first time you felt the weight of hate,

and if that day still trembles beneath your bones.

Do you prefer to play in puddles of rain

or bounce in the bellies of snow?

And if you were to build a snowman,

would you rip two branches from a tree to build your snowman arms

or would leave your snowman armless

for the sake of being harmless to the tree?

And if you would,

would you notice how that tree weeps for you

because your snowman has no arms to hug you

every time you kiss him on the cheek?

Do you kiss your friends on the cheek?

Do you sleep beside them when they’re sad

even if it makes your lover mad?

Do you think that anger is a sincere emotion

or just the timid motion of a fragile heart trying to beat away its pain?

See, I wanna know what you think of your first name,

and if you often lie awake at night and imagine your mother’s joy

when she spoke it for the very first time.

I want you to tell me all the ways you’ve been unkind.

Tell me all the ways you’ve been cruel.

Tell me, knowing I often picture Gandhi at ten years old

beating up little boys at school.

If you were walking by a chemical plant

where smokestacks were filling the sky with dark black clouds

would you holler “Poison! Poison! Poison!” really loud

or would you whisper

“That cloud looks like a fish,

and that cloud looks like a fairy!”

Do you believe that Mary was really a virgin?

Do you believe that Moses really parted the sea?

And if you don’t believe in miracles, tell me 

how would you explain the miracle of my life to me?

See, I wanna know if you believe in any god

or if you believe in many gods

or better yet

what gods believe in you.

And for all the times that you’ve knelt before the temple of yourself,

have the prayers you asked come true?

And if they didn’t, did you feel denied?

And if you felt denied,

denied by who?

I wanna know what you see when you look in the mirror

on a day you’re feeling good.

I wanna know what you see when you look in the mirror

on a day you’re feeling bad.

I wanna know the first person who taught you your beauty

could ever be reflected on a lousy piece of glass.

If you ever reach enlightenment

will you remember how to laugh?

Have you ever been a song?

Would you think less of me

if I told you I’ve lived my entire life a little off-key?

And I’m not nearly as smart as my poetry

I just plagiarize the thoughts of the people around me

who have learned the wisdom of silence.

Do you believe that concrete perpetuates violence?

And if you do 

I want you to tell me of a meadow

where my skateboard will soar.

See, I wanna know more than what you do for a living.

I wanna know how much of your life you spend just giving,

and if you love yourself enough to also receive sometimes.

I wanna know if you bleed sometimes

from other people’s wounds,

and if you dream sometimes

that this life is just a balloon —

that if you wanted to, you could pop,

but you never would

‘cause you’d never want it to stop.

If a tree fell in the forest

and you were the only one there to hear 

if its fall to the ground didn’t make a sound,

would you panic in fear that you didn’t exist,

or would you bask in the bliss of your nothingness?

And lastly, let me ask you this:

If you and I went for a walk

and the entire walk, we didn’t talk.

do you think eventually, we’d… hug?

No, wait.

That’s asking too much 

after all,

this is only our first time to see.


To "Good night and sleep well, R!"


By A.G.

luni, 25 octombrie 2021

 I am not here to entertain you

I am not here to fix you

I am not hear to rescue, heal or revive you

I am not here to be talked at

I am not here to give you all my energy

I am not here to make your story my own

I am not here to just listen

I am not here to make you whole

I am not here to make you happy

I am not here to make it all dissipate

I am not here to distract you from the tedious and mundane

I am not here to mask your sadness and feed your insecure heart

I am not here to hold your hand

I am not here to be a band aid

I am not here to give you all of me

I am here to love you strongly

I am here to love you equally

I am here to be an addition to the joy you already have

I am here to rest in, but not collapse into

I am here to support you, hear you, see you

I am here to make love to you

I am here to love you sweetly and gently and ferociously

I am here to make stories with you

I am here to challenge you

I am here to grow beside you.


 chasing the wind as he comes.


Love gets me nowhere

love is like a virus.

that my writing can stand

they get cut to pieces.

spit to give to people.

and suddenly here I am, sending

All I do is waste.

Dear, I know I’m interrupting you,

When you fall in love for real,

So I will leave this place alone, 

just for you and your lover.

I hope this wild animal won't bite you till death. 

I hope this wind won't dry your face. 

From the time I fell in love

my heart’s delight…

in that heaven of heavens…

of her sumptuous body

Put away your phone.

Sometimes there’s something

cradling a dead Jesus.

I melt with their wetness

My longing for you…

Death sentence.

With tears in my eyes,

The sea, the solitude…

were glacial.

The moon

did not love her husband.

dry for so long

in this house again…

Speaking.

Just a drop.

like a bell

The snow

of his wife,

Take it, take it.

for so long

Your young voice

the beginning.

Years went by and you're not tired of rejection? Of radio silance?

She still can't get over it. 

She will lose him.

He's tired of this games.

Tired about waiting to be seen. 

His wounds got dipped and dipper

with each steps she takes toward wind.

but  she can't  see that.

She can't see the one standing next to her all the time...

I will go away soon.

In the moonlight

everything will change.

stopped singing

feeling in this song

heart is acting up.

certain points.

I need a dark room.

of horses

a wedding proposal.

burns up

It’s all over.

about love.

Isn’t life torture?

so hold it tight.

… as one of the world’s great folk tales,

It’s the sound of the waves.

I don’t want to hear any more.

This is the last chance: to bloom or to fade away. 

Forgive me!

forget me,

do not look for me, 

for I shall already have forgotten you.

that day, 

at that hour, 

I shall lift my arms 

and my roots will set off 

to seek another land.

 What is more beautiful, my love? Love lost or love found? Don’t laugh at me, my love. I know it, I’m awkward and naive when it comes to love, and I ask questions straight out of a pop song. This doubt overwhelms me and undermines me, my love. To find or to lose? All around me, people don’t stop yearning. Did they lose or did they find? I can’t say. An orphan has no way of knowing. An orphan lacks a first love, a love for his mama and papa. That’s the source of his awkwardness, his naiveté. You said to me, on that deserted beach in California, “you can touch my legs.” But I didn’t do it. There my love, is love lost. That’s why I’ve never stopped wondering since that day, where have you been and where you are now? And you, shining gleam of my misspent youth, did you lose or did you find? I don’t know, and I will never know. I can’t even remember your name, my love. And I don’t have the answer. But this is how I like to imagine it, the answer. In the end, my love, we have no choice. We have to find.


M.

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